Hidden Love For Lovely Sunshine
Chapter1~Waiting~
I don’t know why I’m still waiting for an answer. Even I know I’m waiting for a nonexistence answer, it could be that I won’t get the answer in all my life. However life must go on, every day end every night prays to god that I really need someone to love, but unexpectedly my love was emerged in different way and person. And of course, me myself also curious about its, like are she is the one, and should I really trust about what god are given for me. And yet are she the one that really I love? I don’t know, perhaps leaving this question to god for give me the answer is the best way that I can do and now, nothing else I can do than wait.
Chapter2~Friend~
Who doesn’t have friend? And who say friend are useless? For me, if I can consider andrianna is my air for me to breath, so then my friend is my water for me to drink. And if I can consider andrianna is my sun to make me feel warm all the time. Then, my friend is my winds to make me feel comfortable all the time. So, my BFF (best friend forever) is consisted by Jennifer Boulsen, Tanya Carlmen and Courtny Jackson. I really lucky to have them in my life, they always be with me when ever I need them. Cheer me up and make me happy when I’m was down. We did laugh together, play together and even share our problem together. Jennifer, Tanya and Courtney always supporting me even I’m doing a wrong thing. Friends, I love you so much. my story haven’t end yet for sure, I have to say that I had a “bad” friend too -Rebecca Logan, head prefect in my school. Who doesn’t know her? She’s good in her study and paparazzi (gossip) as well in school in fact She always though that she is the number one in school. For me, Typical vain and fanciful person is all I can say about her. Oh yes, Let me remind you, if you have any “Hot” story that you wish to share with everybody in school? Maybe you can find Rebecca for it.
Chapter 3~My Doctor~
Being in a shadow love isn’t easy that I though.. its hard and it challenging. But yet it can bring me happiness..and because of my desire of her, my heart felt like there a lot of thorns and totally pain till I don’t know to resume my heart and how to take the thorns off? Mercy! So, I choose to get a “doctor” for giving me a treatment and antidote for my pain. Elena Campbell is the ones who i trust and the ones can give me my “medicine” of my pain and my illness. Further more, Elena kind of a carefulness and precision person, in another words she absolutely the right person for being my doctor.
Chapter 4~Medicine~
When you get sick, medicine is all you need to recover back. So I’m get my ‘”medicine” from someone that I always consider her as my doctor as well. As usual that I did in my life, go to school and hang on with my friend till school end. But, I don’t hang on with my friend lately , I went to find my doctor- Elena Campbell, Because I feel like I need to spill out that thorns before it getting worst. Everyday on recess Elena will meet me at my class. And I start to telling her every problem or some bad memory that I cannot to forget to Elena and hoping Elena will help me out .I do not know why, after we had our discussion in many times and advices and the spirit that Elena given for me to fight with my sickness and help me to find my way out from the problem that I could not solve by my own. Unbelievable, my heart feel so free and peaceful right after I ’m lost it recently but finally I get “them” back, believe it or not my thorns also disappear and I do not feel any hurt or sick anymore. My heart is recover back so well, however I really glad because I did choose the right person to treat me out and bring me back to my life again! Oh dear, I appreciate for what Elena who was helped me so much.
Chapter 5- Wake Up From My Sweet Dream-
I guess its time for me to wake up. I turn up my ridiculous dream be a beautiful melody in my heart and a memories that I won’t ever forget till the last breath in my life. So, do not know why and idea, this decision suddenly came up in my minds. Whitney Quinn, my class mate and my best friend since we’re in standard one in primary school. Believe or not, our friendship didn’t have any crash or fight even ones. People said a true friend is uneasy for us to finds right? But I disagree that, because as long you can treat people with all your heart and sincerely, people will do the same to you with that way too. Whitney always know how’s to entertain me when I’m down, when the sky of my heart are grey and even when I’m in the difficult situation. So, to entertain me,([Whitney always take me somewhere that she think that I could forget]) The lucky things is my best friends- Jennifer, Tanya, Courtney, Whitney and Elena Campbell for sure are support me and always be with me while along I (on my way )to help me to forget a person who was I admire and desire her that so much . After 2 month, thank to god, I’m success to recover my life back (without “sunshine”) finally. And ones again, I need to thanks all my friends who was helped me so much and be with me no mater what.
Chapter6-The Truth
Thorn that growth in side my heart actually is cause of miss, love and loneliness. When its keep too long and can’t even out or spread it out so finally it become a painfulness thorn that I can’t bear to prevent or restrain it. But what make me feel sad and thwart until now is andrianna don’t even want to say what her feeling about me even I did asked her for how many hundred times! She totally got me crazy when ever I think about it. So, I decide to open up her blog on her facebook that I scare to do so before, but I guess maybe its help me to find the answer. So, I put my brave on chest and guess what, in her blog she wrote that she already fall in love with someone and admire that guy so damn much. No wonder when I ask her about what actually her feeling toward me and she doesn’t say anything! But finally, I got it! So I guess maybe she don’t want to say anything that may broke our friendship and don’t want between had any distance but However, i wish she could be with her “prince charming” and maybe that is the best thing I can ever give her. Let her go to somebody that can give her happiness more than I could maybe is the right thing that I ever done in my life. in fact andrianna already know how much I love her(she heard it from Rebecca logan), so nothing I want to regret for something that I never done or I already done because I know that one day I will leaving her when andrianna already had Mr.Right that could give her everything in her life. Don’t know why I didn’t feel jealous or sad but I feel happy for her, maybe nothings in my head and mind except want her to be happy. But sunshine if you feel lonely or sad, there always in me that you can call “home”.
Chapter7-Charming-
I change my personality and looks after graduate because I quite boring to be girlish looks so I turn up myself to a boys look. It funny but guess what, when I walk into the shopping mall or somewhere in the public place, there got a lot of girls are looking at me and what a stupid thing is there a lot of men or women thought that I’m a boy. So, I’m upload my new looks into my facebook and how surprise that there a lot of girls send their friend request in my facebook more than a boys. Where ever I go or do, there always have a eye are looking at me and of course more are from to girls. There have few girls in my facebook that saying I’m charming and asking for my cell phone number. But what ever it is, even where ever I go or what ever I do, my heart are always have andrianna and I realized that I cannot to forget her but I always wishing her to be happy and safe where ever she been or did even I know I won’t have another chance to meet her again. So, deep inside my heart I still can feel that till now hidden love for a lovely sunshine never gone because I know that I never can forget her and to andrianna chin sze teng , my love and my wish are always be with you because Hidden love for a lovely sunshine is always there you my dear.
The end
