Result?? Oh No, I’m Suffocate again!!

Result?? Oh No, I’m Suffocate again!!


My SPM result will coming out soon...
Got me asking question in my head ,,How my Result going to be??
I 'm scared and suffocating..
9G?? that 's I always scared of...Especially when in about "Mathematic"...sincerely,, I 'm not good in that "s**t"..


Scared and abashed suddenly pop out in my head and heart...they haunting me till I couldn't sleeping at night everyday of my life ..
"The day" are closer and faster that I though..
How? What? Should I explain if I'm failed? Someone tell me how's??
I cannot lie or being trustless ..Especially to my mom and dad...and to my "Yap" family either..they are hopping me so much...for them ,,I'm the best in education from my the other's cousin..They always proud on me..hence ,,I can't bear to see their faces when I'm saying I'm failed in my examination ..I rather to take a bullet straight through my brain... so then, I don't need to concern about anything, anyone or future....


I'm sorry,,because i know that what my result will gonna be,, even the result haven't coming out yet..but believe me,,the truth is my result are not going to be "excellent" and "great" that all of you though...Yes, I 'm 100% certain that... Ain't because of i'm didn't give my best in exam, and ain't because I'm careless about that...I'm sorry, I could not explain why.. Because it's something that I can't describe in words...I just don't know...
please,,don't hopping and depend on me too much.. Because at the end,, There only can bring you disappointed and huge of shame...seriously, I can't take that dependability..Because it's too hard and too much for me..My chest and head containing a lot of pressure and tension till it cause me breathless sometime...



I do not have anymore words to all of you to explain my unsuccessful...
All I can say is....I'm sorry because of your disappointed and bring you so much of deplore..